Friday, 29 June 2012

*Sneak Peak* Splitting The Triangle - Part 2

***Starting where I left off last chapter***

Nicki pressed play and listened to the message on the phone, it was Drake.

"Bae, it's me Drake. I'm sorry I wasn't there to see your beautiful face when you woke up this morning, I had to go..y'know school and alladat" She smiled as she listened to his smooth words, although it was hard to hear him over all of the noise in the background on the message..which didn't really sound like school. She could hear older men yelling, laughing and cussing. "..anyway I was just ringing to ask if you could come pick me up later, I know you can't drive...but SB can and I don't really feel like I can ask him...s'ok if you can't but get back to me soon. Bye baby" and with that the message was over.

Nicki was a little confused but just shrugged it off and texted him asking what time he wanted to be picked up. When he texted back she did a double take "11:00pm! What in the hell? I'm gon' be sleep at that time!" she huffed and shook her head "Whatever, not like I have to get up early". She finished her texting session with Drake and let Safaree know that they had to go get him. Then she called her mother to make sure they had got home ok, which to her relief they had. Finally she settled herself back on the couch and called Candi and Lauren.

"Heeeeyyy Nic, s'goin on?" Lauren was always so chirpy.

"Hi Laur...well nuttin'! That's the problem!" Nicki pouted as though Lauren could see her. Then she heard some yelling in the background.

"Hold up Nic, Candi's bin a loud ass" Nicki heard Candi's muffled laughter and started giggling herself.

"Annyywaaaays I want y'all to come 'round to mine, y'know for a girls night?"She played with the ends of her hair waiting for them to answer.

"Sure, we dying to see you, plus we got lots to talk about missy!" Nicki cringed, she hated been interrogated by these two, they were relentless.

"Damn Laur! so you go about interrogatin' pregnant girls in yo' spare time?!" The girls couldn't help but laugh at her ratchet talk.

"Shuush child! We on our way over, make sure there's food! We starvin' over here." She ended the call and shook her head and started to get everything ready.

She had finished showering up and was sat on her bed in her underwear pasting body lotion over herself. "I ain't livin' with no stretchmarks cause of you liddo one!" As she continued to talk to her baby she could feel him continuously kicking and wished Safaree was here to see it. "See?!" she thought to herself "Why do I think of him first?...Drake is the father, not Faree." Her internal argument was interrupted by someone annoyingly holding the doorbell down. "Candi, seriously Imma slap the shit outta you!" She muttered and threw her robe back on over her underwear, and went to let them in.

*Sorry it is super short but I had a MASSIVE twitter session tonight so I'm drained..And I'm working tomorrow :((( But I will try and get the full chapter up on Sunday or Monday, kay?? Thanks for all your comments ^___^ And has anyone got any feedback? Anything you feel I could be doing better? You see, all of this is new to me so any help is appreciated!  :)) Don't worry Onikafaree fans, Safaree will be in the next chapter...He seems to have gone missing, oop! Well *Nicki voice from Sweet Dreams Remix* That's all folks! ^__^ Muuuah*

Thursday, 28 June 2012

*NOTE*

Uhhlright, well I haven't forgotten about y'all I will be posting... *strokes chin* maybe tomorrow but I just wanted to thank you all again for all the comments! I feel bad that I haven't had chance to reply to everybody :'''( *Nicki voice from RTM video* I'm sorry...but I'm gonna put my @ name in thus very post :D Remember what I said though bugs!? No blog talk in the land of twitter >_> @SoftLykeButta, I already followed you, did you see?? Mmmkay welp I think that is juuust about everything I wanted to saay *ponders* OHH yeah if anyone is looking for a REEEAAALLLY good Dricki story right about now go here >>>>>> http://lovelikethisfic.blogspot.com.au/2010/11/listen-to-love-life-music.html Some of you probably already read it, and if that don't open, it's under the blogs that I follow and it's called Love Like This A Dricki Fic So yeaaah it is quite long and I thought it was amaaazing!! Alrighty then my twitter name is @FontyHeartsGali  and I'll be off now. Toodleoooo! *Kisses the Barbz* Muuah

Wednesday, 27 June 2012

Splitting The Triangle - Part 1 (Full Chapter)

*Ok chick peas! Here is the full chapter and just to let you know, when I repost full chapters I will include the text in the sneak peak chapters but I will put it in italics so that you can skip to where you left off. You get me?? it's ok if you don't...I'm a very confusing person XD...enjoy!*


Nicki awoke the next morning feeling strangely refreshed, she reached over the other side of her bed remembering that Drake had stayed the night only he wasn't there. She sat up slowly to see if had taken his clothes, her heart sank when she saw they had gone from the floor. Slowly laying back down she pulled her blanket up around her and then rested her hands over her stomach and started to drift into thoughts about telling her family about the baby. Both her mother and Jelani called every second day to check up on her but she still hadn't told her mother she was pregnant and she was almost six months pregnant. In all honesty she was terrified of what her reaction might be...and what her father might do. A knock on her door interrupted her worrying thoughts and Safaree popped his head in.

"Ohh so you wake now?! 'Bout time!!" he said with a voice full of ignorance. Nicki side-eyed him and flipped the covers off of her tiny frame.

"Boy! I been through hell last night, leave da kid alone!!" She giggled as she finished her sentence. The smell of turkey bacon caught her attention before she could say anything else. "Oooh you makin' us some food?" She asked whilst patting her baby bump, Safaree guessed by 'us' she meant her and the baby and shook his head at her being all cute.

"Sure did!! It's gon' be ready any minute now!" He cheesed at her before moving closer and sitting on the edge of her bed next to her, he always thought it was cute how her feet would dangle and his could reach the floor easy.

"Faree?" She began a little hesitantly and he turned to look at her.

"Nicki?" He mimicked her before being punched fairly hard on the arm. "Ayye chill out woman!" Nicki laughed at his flinching and funny comment. "Nah, but seriously now..what's on yo' mind?"

"I think...I should tell my mom that I'm pregnant...well I don't think, I know I have to tell her!" She started chewing on her nail waiting for Safaree to say something.

"Oh, word? You're right doe you do need to tell her...maybe you should ask to go 'round for dinner, that way if things get outta hand you can just up and leave? You know what I'm sayin'?" He pulled her hand away from her mouth. "Nicki? Helloo?"

"Yeah I heard you nigga! I think that's a good idea...I wanna invite Jelani though...do you know when he's visiting? I'll organise it with mom when he's home....and you'll come to, right?" She took his hand in hers as she waited for him answer, she noticed that he had said 'you' and not 'we'. He was thinking about it, he knew she would want to ask Drake too and truthfully he felt like it would rip his heart out to see her with him. He was brought back to the conversation by Nicki's tiny hand squeezing his.

"Oh..yeah..I mean course I'll be there Nic! And Jelani is coming back for three days on thursda-oh tomorrow!" He tried to play his answer off but Nicki knew there was something going on with him, she didn't mention anything though and smiled at the fact that he was actually going to go with her. They both looked down and realised that they were still holding hands and their fingers seemed to have automatically laced. Safaree shifted uncomfortably and pulled his hand away.

"So where'd Drake disappear to?" He asked as he made his way back over to the door. Nicki just gave him a dead face.

"Uuum School, DUH!" She let out a cackle after answering him with attitude. Safaree had the mornings off on wednesdays and Klara had told Nicki that not going back to school would be best for her baby's health so Nicki was officially free from school.

"Talkin' to a coon like he stupid!! Come on kiddo, by the smell of things my food is DONE!" With that he left in hurry as Nicki sat giggling to herself. He alwaysmanaged to make her laugh, that's what she loved about him not to mention he was the sweetest, kindest guy she'd ever met. But he was just her best friend, no matter what people thought. As she said that in her mind, she was quickly reminded of the tingly feeling she felt as they held hands not two minutes ago. She shook the thoughts away "Prolly just hormones" she muttered as she threw her robe on and went out to join Safaree and eat.

***Later On In The Day***

Nicki was laying on the couch watching Judge Judy, slowly drifting off to sleep when there was a loud knock on the front door. "If that's Faree's nigga ass forgettin' his damn keys again..." she spat angrily to herself as she tiredly made her way to the door, looking through the peephole she was met with a surprise.



She stood in shock for a moment, wondering what to do. "Shit, shit shit!" she managed to whisper to herself whilst standing as still as a statue.


"Onika? Nicki, are you home? Your school called, they said you hadn't shown up for registration. Are you sick cause we brought you some chicken soup?" She sounded concerned. "Onika Maraj, I know you're home I can hear judge Judy yellin' through the TV! Now come open the door for your mother, this baby brother of yours ain't light to carry." Nicki's heart was racing and she started to panic and cuss herself out for leaving the damn TV on and forgetting to inform the school that she wouldn't be going for a few months. She knew her mother was just as stubborn as her and there was no way she was going to just give up and leave. Remembering what that asshole of a doctor said she tried to calm herself down by breathing out slowly, she didn't realise she was shaking. Looking down at her bump there was no way of hiding it, suddenly she had an idea...not a brilliant one but it's the only one she had. She tiptoed over to the door and unlocked silently and quickly and quietly ran back to the couch, tightened her robe around her and clutched a couch pillow to her tummy.


"Come in Mom, the door's open!" She messed her hair up a little to make it look as though she had been asleep.


"Ohh...Oop! Maybe I should have tried that first before waking my poor sick baby up" She scrunched her face up as she shut the door behind her and set Caiah on the floor, he immediately toddled over to Nicki with a huge grin on his face. It had been almost three months since she saw both her mother and Caiah and she missed them so much. She pulled him up on the chair next to her and started tickling him which caused him to let out an adorable laugh before kissing him on his cheek. She hoped her baby would be as chirpy as Caiah, he never seemed to cry or get bratty.


"Well, at least Safaree's been feeding you well! You look very healthy Nika" She smiled as she stroked Nicki's rosy cheek and then went to dish the soup in to bowls. By now Caiah was trying to climb all over her and play like he usually did, but she was trying to keep him from standing on her bump which was still safely hidden underneath the pillow.


"Lambchop! You so silly, stop climbin' on me boy!" Se couldn't help but laugh, her mother started to chuckle at the sight before her as she brought three bowls of soup over to the coffee table in the lounge room.


"Here you go baby, this should make you feel better" she handed her a bowl and looked between her and Cai "He's really missed you, y'know?" It must have been Nick's hormones but she was really fighting back the tears now, she felt so bad just leaving and not going back to visit them especially when they only lived fifteen minutes away. She knew it was different for them, they couldn't just go out and visit her because of how her dad would react when they got home. Always accusing her of screwing around with other men and trying to leave him. "Ohh Nika, honey don't cry he's here now and he's seeing you! Look how happy he is." she made herself room on the couch next to Nicki and pulled her into a hug. Not like a Faree hug or a Drake hug, although she loved those hugs and they always made her feel safe, this hug was a maternal, loving hug. Something she missed immensely. At that moment she knew she had to tell her, having Caiah there made it better because Nicki knew for a fact that her mother hated for him to be around arguments so she wouldn't raise her voice while he was there. She took a deep breath and tried to control her tears before talking.


"No, Mommy it's not that...well it's kinda that but..." She cried a little more and tried to wipe the tears away. Mama Carol was extremely concerned at this point, she knew her daughter was strong so whatever the reason she was crying it must have been quite serious.


"Onika, you can tell me..I'm here, I'm always here for you no matter what." she stroked Nicki's hair out of her face and looked at Caiah. "Cai, baby why don't you go play with Nicki's teddies in her room?" She didn't have to tell him twice, he had an obsession with teddies at the moment. He let out a little squeal before darting, wobbly, to Nicki's room. Mama Carol looked back to Nicki. "Now what's goin' on with you?"


"You said y-you'll always be h-here for me n-no matter what, do you m-mean that?" Her breathing was now short pants because of how hard she was crying, she wanted to rub her bump and try to soothe her baby but the pillow was still in the way.


"Onika! How could you even question that? You know that I mean it!" she looked sort of hurt that Nicki would question what she had said, but she had to be sure before she told her. "Now are you goin' to tell me what on earth has got you all upset?" Nicki looked down slowly, desperately trying to calm herself at the same time. Gently moving away from her mother's embrace she removed the pillow. Mama Carol's eyes were fixed to Nicki's almost 6 month bump protruding through her robe.


"....Mom, I'm pregnant...." Nothing but silence filled the room, apart from the faint sound of the TV which was still playing in the corner of the room. Nicki's breathing hitched as she waited for her Mother to say something. The tears were still streaming down her face. "Mom...p-please say something?" It came out as a whisper but she heard her.


"I'm not sure what to say Onika. I thought you were sensible...I thought you were trying to get somewhere in life?!" It came out as a half yell but the look in her eyes was surprisingly calm.


"I am! And I am still trynna get somewhere in life Mom! It was just one stupid mistake" She collected herself before continuing "I don't regret it though, I know I want my baby...and if he's anything like me he's gon' fight for his life.." She trailed off and looked at the bowls of soup going cold on the table.


"...he?...fight for his life? Is there someth-" She was cut off before she could finish talking.


"Yeah, he's a boy.."She smiled as she said it but kept her gaze fixed on the table and wrapped her arms around herself. "But he has an irregular heartbeat...so it's not good for me to get upset or worked up." She said wiping away the last of her tears. Mama Carol looked at her daughter, she was fuming no doubt about it but more disappointed than anything. She really thought Nicki was going to make something of her life and get away from Queens, she couldn't really see that happening now.  However hard she tried to stay frustrated with her she couldn't especially not while she had been sat there crying for a while.


"Onika, I meant what I said before...but I'm really disappointed with you." She had tears in her own eyes now. "But...I'll be here for you, I promise. It's going to take a long time for me to get used to this but, I love you and I won't leave you!" Before she could finish her sentence she had pulled Nicki into a tight hug. "I can't believe you've gone through all of this alone."


"No Mom, Faree has been looking after me, he's known for ages now...and, promise you won't get mad? But Jelani knows too, that's why he let me and Faree stay here while he was away." Mama Carol just shook her head, "You and that boy are like two peas in a pod sometimes, I swear! I'm glad they've been looking out for you though." They sat in silence for a while until Mama Carol broke the silence. "I'm going to make us both a drink and re-heat this soup and you can tell me everything I've missed." She pottered off into the kitchen whilst Nicki sat quietly on the couch. She felt as though a huge weight had been lifted off of her shoulders and she could finally relax and concentrate on staying healthy for her baby. After Mama Carol returned Nicki went though everything from the first time she was admitted to hospital, who the father was and all of the information about her baby's condition. Everything she said had her mother in tears, she felt awful that she wasn't there for her daughter through all of this struggle but she was now, and it was going to stay that way. Then Nicki moved on to another topic, something she hadn't even talked to Candi and Lauren about and especially not Safaree.


"Mom, how did you know that daddy was the one? I mean I know I'm only sixteen but...well I really like Drake but I don't know, there's something not quite right and I don't feel that same connection and love that I have for -"


"Safaree?" Her mother cut in. Nicki's eyes bugged.


"Yeah, how did you know?" She asked a little unsurely.


"I've always said I'll be damned if my daughter doesn't end up with that lovely boy!" She gave a dimpled smile that resembled Nicki's.


"You think?" Nicki laughed, she couldn't help it. Up until now she had only ever thought of Safaree as a best friend and she wasn't sure whether it was just her hormones making her feel a type of way towards him.


"Trust me child, he's a great guy and any girl would be lucky to have him but I think his heart already belongs to somebody special." Nicki looked down, she was disappointed even though she was with Drake and she truly did feel something for him but she could't ignore the way she felt about Safaree. "His heart belongs to you Onika, haven't you ever noticed the way he is with you? How he is never with any other girls? How much he cares for you, he's looked after you all this time...I'm pretty certain he wants you more than just a friend." She pulled Nicki's chin, making her face her way. "Talk to him, tell him how you feel or you might regret it." She thought about what her mother was saying and it did make sense but she didn't want to hurt her friendship with him, what if he didn't feel the same way back? She was brought back to reality by a sleepy Caiah emerging from her room rubbing his eyes. "Well we better be off." She looked at the clock, it was almost 6:00pm. "Come on Cai, say bye to Nicki." She could tell he was tired because he gave her a small wave and Mama Carol scooped him up. "We'll come visit you soon, kay?" she said as she kissed Nicki's forehead and put her hand on her bump "Look after my Grandbaby." Nicki chuckled as she said her goodbyes and shut the door behind them. She couldn't believe how easy that was, well not easy but not as awful as she had imagined, she kept smiling as she went over to her cell phone and called the girls, since Safaree was working she decided she was in need of a girls night but before she called them she noticed she had a voicemail message on her phone...


*Dang this chapter is sooo bloody looong Imma have to make it in to two parts XD sorry bubs! I decided to cut the drama down for Nic's sake annnnd for everyone who asked, Onikafaree is in process! I decided this because almost all of the comments I  received where Pro-Onikafaree so that it shall be!! And thanks once again for all of your comments ^_^ SUPER appreciated, thank you! And A BIG THANK YOU to the anonymous reader who wished me a happy birthday ^___^ Yup I had a great birthday thank you so much!! Oh yeah before I go, Imma try and get part 2 done tonight and also do any of you have twitter?? Cause I do, however I write this blog under a fake name and If I was to follow you on twitter you must promise me that you won't mention that I have a blog? It sounds weird but I prefer for my friends not to know, only one of them is a Nicki fan, the rest hate her :''''( they not even on twitter but they would laugh at me soooo....you promise to keep it a secret bugs?? if you do then I'll put my @ name up on the next chapter ^_^ Muuuah*

Monday, 25 June 2012

*Sneak Peak* Splitting The Triangle - Part 1

***Starting where I left off last chapter***

Nicki awoke the next morning feeling strangely refreshed, she reached over the other side of her bed remembering that Drake had stayed the night only he wasn't there. She sat up slowly to see if had taken his clothes, her heart sank when she saw they had gone from the floor. Slowly laying back down she pulled her blanket up around her and then rested her hands over her stomach and started to drift into thoughts about telling her family about the baby. Both her mother and Jelani called every second day to check up on her but she still hadn't told her mother she was pregnant and she was almost six months pregnant. In all honesty she was terrified of what her reaction might be...and what her father might do. A knock on her door interrupted her worrying thoughts and Safaree popped his head in.

"Ohh so you wake now?! 'Bout time!!" he said with a voice full of ignorance. Nicki side-eyed him and flipped the covers off of her tiny frame.

"Boy! I been through hell last night, leave da kid alone!!" She giggled as she finished her sentence. The smell of turkey bacon caught her attention before she could say anything else. "Oooh you makin' us some food?" She asked whilst patting her baby bump, Safaree guessed by 'us' she meant her and the baby and shook his head at her being all cute.

"Sure did!! It's gon' be ready any minute now!" He cheesed at her before moving closer and sitting on the edge of her bed next to her, he always thought it was cute how her feet would dangle and his could reach the floor easy.

"Faree?" She began a little hesitantly and he turned to look at her.

"Nicki?" He mimicked her before being punched fairly hard on the arm. "Ayye chill out woman!" Nicki laughed at his flinching and funny comment. "Nah, but seriously now..what's on yo' mind?"

"I think...I should tell my mom that I'm pregnant...well I don't think, I know I have to tell her!" She started chewing on her nail waiting for Safaree to say something.

"Oh, word? You're right doe you do need to tell her...maybe you should ask to go 'round for dinner, that way if things get outta hand you can just up and leave? You know what I'm sayin'?" He pulled her hand away from her mouth. "Nicki? Helloo?"

"Yeah I heard you nigga! I think that's a good idea...I wanna invite Jelani though...do you know when he's visiting? I'll organise it with mom when he's home....and you'll come to, right?" She took his hand in hers as she waited for him answer, she noticed that he had said 'you' and not 'we'. He was thinking about it, he knew she would want to ask Drake too and truthfully he felt like it would rip his heart out to see her with him. He was brought back to the conversation by Nicki's tiny hand squeezing his.

"Oh..yeah..I mean course I'll be there Nic! And Jelani is coming back for three days on thursda-oh tomorrow!" He tried to play his answer off but Nicki knew there was something going on with him, she didn't mention anything though and smiled at the fact that he was actually going to go with her. They both looked down and realised that they were still holding hands and their fingers seemed to have automatically laced. Safaree shifted uncomfortably and pulled his hand away.

"So where'd Drake disappear to?" He asked as he made his way back over to the door. Nicki just gave him a dead face.

"Uuum School, DUH!" She let out a cackle after answering him with attitude. Safaree had the mornings off on wednesdays and Klara had told Nicki that not going back to school would be best for her baby's health so Nicki was officially free from school.

"Talkin' to a coon like he stupid!! Come on kiddo, by the smell of things my food is DONE!" With that he left in hurry as Nicki sat giggling to herself. He always managed to make her laugh, that's what she loved about him not to mention he was the sweetest, kindest guy she'd ever met. But he was just her best friend, no matter what people thought. As she said that in her mind, she was quickly reminded of the tingly feeling she felt as they held hands not two minutes ago. She shook the thoughts away "Prolly just hormones" she muttered as she threw her robe on and went out to join Safaree and eat.

***Later On In The Day***

Nicki was laying on the couch watching Judge Judy, slowly drifting off to sleep when there was a loud knock on the front door. "If that's Faree's nigga ass forgettin' his damn keys again..." she spat angrily to herself as she tiredly made her way to the door, looking through the peephole she was met with a surprise....

*Annd Scene ^_^ Sorry it isn't much and tbqfh it's pretty boring :/ haha I'm super tired and I had promised another chapter so I gave y'all a sneak peak instudd *beams proudly* Also I haven't posted cause I had a pretty weird weekend :/ ..... buut anyway I will post again tomorrow :) Thanks for all the comment guys!! ^___^  *Blows Kisses to all the Barbz in the UK, USA, Australia, France, Barbados, Germany, Malaysia, South Korea, Canada and Columbia* Thanks for reading bugs!! Muuah!

Sunday, 24 June 2012

*NOTE*

Ohh Myy Gaawd! I never expected to get comments like the ones I have been getting!! Thank you all soooo much! Poor Nic, I feel so bad writing her into all this crap buuuut things are gunna look up for her soon but there has to be more drama before that happens :O
I aint gonna be home tonight so I can't do the next chapter but I am PROMISING you one for Monday sometime! Even if I have to stay up til' 5:00am like I did last time!! Well toodleoo bugs!! Also reading all of your comments made my birthday even better ^_____^ so thank you all!! Muuah

Ooh and just to add, I'm not sure how many of you know already but I came across this album on iTunes by DJ Smoke called 'Crazy Barbie' and they all Nicki songs, like one or two of them are early Nicki Minaj tunes..so yeeah I been bought a few!! ^__^


Thursday, 21 June 2012

I Thought It Was Supposed To Get Better?

*Okaaay kiddywinks ^_^ I thank you all, once again, for your comments!! I really appreciate them!! :)
So I have decided on the message being bad news...but not too bad, I think poor Nic has been thru enough..I am torturing the poor kid :'''''''( But anyhoo not totally sure where I am going with Onikafaree/Dricki cause I never plan/draft my posts I jus' Type! ;/ Imma surprise y'all!
Alsoo, look at lil old me postin' on the day I promised! I just finished exams today and I'm finished uni for a MONTH :') alsooo after this post the next one will be like maybe Friday :/..or I might even post on my birthday on Saturday :) Welp...hope I don't disappoint :( Don't forget my brain has been frazzled by exams!! Ooooh also I know absolutely NOTHING about medical terms an awl dat soo yuuh haha please don't judge*

***starting from where I left off in the last chapter***

Safaree stood motionless for a moment, a million thoughts running through his head. The message, funnily enough was from Klara. He replayed the message to make sure he was hearing right.

"Hello, this is Klara Michaels calling from Clearview Hospital. I'm ringing because myself and another collegue noticed a few...things in Nicki's charts from the last two appointments, I have no idea how this happened and I apologize profusely but we need to see Nicki back at the hospital to run some tests and check her over...as soon as possible. I'm trusting that you'll receive this message soon..."

Safaree placed the phone down and started to fear the worst, he knew deep down that his worry, love and concern for her was way beyond friendship level. To be honest he knew that he was catching feelings for her, well perhaps not even catching feelings because they had always been there, that's when he realized. He quickly ran back in to Nicki's room trying not to startle her too much.

"Nic! Nicki!?" he whispered loudly and urgently enough to wake her from her sleep.

"Huh..Faree?..What the hell! I was asleep!" She snapped, clearly irritated that she had been woken. She rolled away from him and faced the window keeping her eyes shut.

"No Nicki, Klara called..." He waited to see if he got a response before he continued. Surely enough she turned over slowly waiting for him to continue.

"Klara? Why? What did she want?" She asked looking over at her alarm clock to see it flashing at 23:19.  She looked back and kept eye contact with him waiting for him to speak. Safaree looked down before continuing.

"She said that her and another colleague noticed somethin' in your charts, somethin' they missed in your last two appointments..." He trailed off when he saw her worried face.

"..like what?" Her lip was quivering at this point and Safaree desperately didn't want her crying and getting all worked up.

"Well Ion know, she said we have to get you down to the hospital whenever we can, so get dressed and..pack an overnight back and your essentials just in case. I'll go call Klara and tell her we on our way."  He kissed her reassuringly on her forehead before he left.

Nicki sat worried for a minute or two. Why was this happening to her, it felt like she hadn't had any relaxing moments during her pregnancy. If she wasn't crying and getting upset, she had internal bleeding, or if Safaree and Drake weren't fighting something else had to be wrong. A single tear rolled down her cheek, before she swiftly wiped it away. "No!" she thought to herself "I am gon' be strong for my baby boy!" She assured whilst smoothing her hands down either side of her bump. She got up and did as Safaree said, packing enough underwear for two nights just in case.

After they pulled up to the hospital and were sat in a private room Safaree broke the silence whilst they waited for Klara to arrive.

"You want me to call Drake?" He really, really didn't want to but right now he had to think about what Nicki wanted and needed. He looked at her waiting for an answer.

"..Oh, yeah...please if you don't mind" She was bouncing her leg up and down, which told Safaree she was nervous. He rested his hand on her leg and it stopped moving instantly.

"It's gon' be ok..I promise" He looked her in the eye. Nicki didn't know why but he had a way of calming her like nobody else could, with the exception of her mother but she couldn't turn to her right now. Safaree took Nicki's phone and stepped into the hallway to call Drake.

"Hey Nic..what you doin' callin' so late? Drake chuckled down the phone. Safaree tried to stay as friendly as possible.

"Um, it's Safaree actually. Look I'm callin' cuz Nic's down at Clearview Hospital-" Drake cut him off before he could finish.

"What?! Why what's happened?!" He sounded genuinely worried which made Safaree feel a little less hostile towards him.

"We don't know yet...Her midwife left a message on our phone tellin' us there's something up wit' her charts." He let out a frustrated sigh as he said it, Klara was taking her sweet ass time wherever she was.

"I'm on my way, what room number?" It pained Safaree to admit it but Drake did seem like a nice guy, and although at first he didn't step up to the plate he was obviously trying now.

"It's room 308, hurry she wants you here" and with that the two guys hung up. Just as Safaree ended the call he saw Klara and another man were walking toward him. She greeted Safaree, as did the man and they entered the room together.

"Hello Nicki, I know you must be worrying and stressing right now but we're just going to run a few more tests and then Mr Kefnor is going to explain what's going on." Nicki glanced over at Safaree, fear plastered across her face, he was about to go over and take his rightful place holding her hand and telling her everything would be ok but just as he was about to the door burst open and a puffing Drake rushed over to her side and nodded at Safaree.

"Drake! Baby you're here!" She wrapped her arms around his neck, he returned the hug and whispered in her ear.

"I told you Imma be here for both a y'all" He pulled back to look her in the eyes and sweetly pecked her lips and gave her a reassuring smile before introducing himself to klara and Mr Kefnor. He took a seat next to Nicki's bedside whilst Safaree stayed where he was, in the corner.

"Ok, Nicki I'm just going to run over the basic things we do during checkups and then I'm going to ask the two lovely gentlemen to leave the room whilst I perform some other checkups." She carried on sorting out all the equipment and Mr Kefnor moved over towards the bed.

"Look, I don't mean to be rude or anythin' but can you please tell me what y'all missed in my charts or whatever this problem is?!" Nicki was getting heated and fed up of being left out of the loop when it was her and her baby that were at risk. Mr Kefnor took notice of her fiery attitude.

"Ohh what a little spitfire we have here!" He let out a weird chuckle at his comment that Nicki, nor Drake or Safaree found very amusing.

"Sir, I don't find that very funny!" She death glared him as he shifted uncomfortably under Drake and Safaree's angry eyes.

"Excuse me! Mr Kefnor, keep your stupid comments to yourself and move out of my way!" Nicki and Safaree looked at each other in shock, they had never heard Klara like that before. Mr Kefnor looked down and stepped aside letting Klara get access to Nicki. She rolled Nicki's shirt up and attached a monitor to her bump, getting the baby's heart rate up on the screen to the side of the bed.

"Now, if you can manage it, can you please explain to Nicki what she's doing back here whilst I go get some more paperwork sorted?" She looked at him angrily before smiling at Nicki and leaving the room. Mr Kefnor wheeled a chair over from the corner and seated himself in it before beginning his explanation.

"First off..I apologise for the comment I made. I know you're all worried and it wasn't the best time to say that, I'm sorry. But the reason you're here is, myself or someone in my department missed some things on your charts-" Nicki cut him off sharply.

"Yes we know that awlready!! I've been told that!! What is it that you've missed??" She was getting angrier by the minute.

"It's your baby's heart, it seems to be beating irregularly" he glanced up at her before finishing his sentence "more so when you get upset or angry, so I suggest you calm down." The news hit her like a tonne of bricks, she struggled to wrap her head around what he had said. Safaree removed his cap and rubbed his hands over his face before sitting down again whilst Drake sat holding Nicki's hand, he was also at a loss for words.

"...so, w-what's going to happen then?" she stammered, trying not to break down.

"Well, we're going to start you on some medication which should hopefully hold out until the baby is born and Nurse Michaels is also arranging for you to be medicated for your high blood pressure and prescribe you some vitamins that will help your condition. As for after the baby is born, the situation will have to be re-assessed but we're possibly looking at heart surgery to correct the problem." He stood up from the chair and straightened out his suit "Have you got any questions Ms Maraj?" She didn't answer, just simply shook her head no and with that he said his goodbyes and left. The room was silent all except for Nicki's soft cries as Drake slowly stroked her hand which was still enclosed in his. Safaree couldn't sit and listen to her crying anymore, it felt like it was physically hurting him. He knew she would be ok with Drake if he left.

"Look Imma go grab a drink or somethin' and leave you two alone for a bit. You want anythin'?" Nicki asked for some water but Drake didn't want anything.

"Come on Nic, you heard what that ass said. Crying isn't good for the baby..or you for that matter" He smoothed his hand over her face wiping the tears away.

"I-I Know it's j-just I can't h-help but think this is all my f-fault" It took her a while to say it and it was almost impossible to work out what she had said but Drake put his hands on either side of her face and turned her head to face him.

"Don't you ever think that this is your fault! You hear me!?" He said it sternly but with an affectionate tone. Nicki nodded slowly as he kissed her cheek moving to lay on the bed with her. He could tell she was tired, her eyelids were heavy and she snuggled closer to him as sleep took over. Drake just lay there resting his head on Nicki's as he felt her soft breathing against his neck. He couldn't sleep, everything was turning over in his mind. Before his thoughts could develop further Klara and Safaree reappeared, noticing a sleeping Nicki, and shuffled in quietly.

"Aww, how cute!" Klara cooed in a whisper, she looked at Safaree and saw the hurt look on his face but got back to her business when he caught her looking.

"Ok, well I have all of Nicki's prescriptions here you just need to take them down to the front desk and hand these slips in and they'll give you the medication." She gave a slight smile "Nicki can go home tonight, there is nothing else we can do other than mediacte...but I'm afraid we're going to have to wake sleeping beauty up whilst I do the routine checkup...for the second time today! And you two will have to leave the room, so maybe you could go get her prescriptions?" She looked between the two, kind of sensing the tension before clicking her fingers "Well off you go then!" Drake eased himself off the bed and accidentally woke Nicki in the process.

"Hey you, we gon' go get your medication whilst the nurse checks you over then you can go home" Drake smiled down at her and went to kiss her but she stopped him.

"...can you come stay over at mine tonight?" She whispered as she looked at him pleadingly, he turned to get approval from SB but he saw the door swinging. He had already walked out.

"Sure I can babygirl, we'll come back later when you finished here. Text me when your done, kay?" Nicki nodded and let him finish his kiss before he walked out and Klara proceeded with the checkup.

***
The three of them walked into Jelani's house slowly, truthfully they were all tired after all it was 3:00am. Nicki was all ready for bed seeing as she was in bed before they had to dash out so she threw her jammies back on and carefully got back under the covers lifting the other side open for Drake to hop in, he was clad in a pair of black Calvin Klein's. Nicki let out a long shaky sigh as she got as close to Drake as her bump would let her, he pulled her even closer and they both dozed off in no time with their baby nestled safely between them.

Over in Safaree's room he sat stiffly on the edge of the bed wondering what the hell to do. He was in love with her. He was in love with his best friend. He was in love with Onika Maraj, but now he was realising too late. Or was it too late?....

*Baayuum!! oh guys that took FOREVER!! I am soo sorry about how long it drags on for!! I was watching tv at the same time -____- not doin that again! But anyways, I hope it's ok and i just want to remind you I DO NOT KNOW anything about hospitals or babies or nothin'!! So sorry if y'all know that stuff and notice that I am clueless in that area! XD Enjoy Barbz p.s sorry for any typos! Muuah*

Sunday, 17 June 2012

*REMINDER*

Ok Little ones! I would just like to say a HUGE thank you to the Anonymous readers who commented!! Y'all really motivate me, so thank you very very very much! ^_^ Also I just wanted to saaay that the next post will most likely be on, Thursday but if not it will be the weekend! I haven't forgotten!! ^_^ Alsoo I know this is a long shot cause I have no clue how many people actually read this, but I was wondering whether you guys would like the phone message in the last chapter to be good news or bad news?? hmmm so many decisions! Welp, better get back to studying -_____________-
Love you guys! Muuah *holds and kisses you all*

Wednesday, 13 June 2012

*NOTE*

Okay! So THIS will be my last post for the week...I just checked out my blog on the laptop for the first time (Usually I do it all on my iPad) and the font was AWFUL I could hardly read it!! So I did some fixing up and changed the fonts and yada yada yada so hopefully people who do read my story can do so a little more easily now! Sorry..*Sends kisses to the Barbz*

Happy For You

***Starting where I left off last chapter***

Nicki and Drake stood there not knowing what to say to Safaree. For a start Drake couldn't understand why he was so mad. Next to him Nicki just stood there and then finally broke the silence.

"Faree..please don't be like this?" She moved closer to him as he dropped his keys on the table.

"Nic, I'm not being like anything...It's your life, your baby it ain't up to me what you choose to do" He answered with an angry tone without looking at her. Drake felt awkward just stood there listening to them.

"Look man I know you her best friend and you really care about her...but so do I, can't you just be happy for her?" He moved closer to Safaree and Nicki could see Safaree tense up with his back to them and she started to get worried, she knew what he was like when he was angry.

"Faree, just leave it..please?" It came out as a hushed whisper but both guys heard her "Look, Drake maybe this wasn't such a good idea...Um..I'll just call you later, kay?" She walked over to him and gently grabbed his hand to lead him to the door but he didn't move.

"Do you have a problem with me SB?" He could feel the tension in the room rising as Safaree turned to look at them both slowly.

"Actually I do!! Now if you don't mind I want yo' nigga ass gone!" The two got closer and closer until they were face to face. Nicki tried to step inbetween them but things got heated pretty quickly as Safaree shoved Drake really hard and Nicki jumped away just in time to avoid the scuffle.

"NIGGA, LAY YOUR FUCKIN HANDS ON ME AGAIN-" Drake started but was cut off by Safaree's deep and angry voice.

"YOU AIN'T GON' DO SHIT!!" He continued to shove Drake as he in return pushed back, before Nicki knew it they started yelling and cussing violently while she tried to step between them again. Neither guys noticed that she had been knocked to the ground in the midst of their fight.

"Shit!! Nicki are you ok, are you hurt?" They both rushed over to her, only to be yelled at and slapped with one hand as she held on to her bump with the other.

"FOR FUCKS SAKE YOU GUYS!! DRAKE..."She paused as she tried to get off the floor unsuccessfully "..drake please will you just leave!? I'll call you later..and Safaree I'm goin' for shower and don't EVEN think about coming to see me..I don't wanna see either of you two assholes right now!" With that she got herself up from the ground, with a struggle considering her baby bump. Drake and Safaree looked at each and felt awful, they both rushed to help her up agai but she swatted both of them away and stormed off.

"...I really didn't mean for that to happen" Safaree sighed as he smoothed his hand over his face.

"Tell me about it..." Drake added as he picked the food scraps off floor which was a result of the food plate being knocked to the floor during their altercation.

"Leave it, it's fine I'll clean this up" Safaree shrugged, it was obvious he was trying to make things ok but his pride was putting up a fight. Drake glanced over and gave him the smallest but most genuine smile he could before heading to the door.

"..Oh and Drake?" There was one last thing Safaree wanted to say "If you EVER so much as hurt her in the smallest way...." He shook his head as he spoke.

"SB, I really, really care about Nicki..and our baby, I AM NOT gunna hurt" The way he emphasised 'OUR' made Safaree's blood boil.

And with that Drake left.

"Why can't they just fuckin' get along?! Is it too much to ask?!" Nicki angrily thought to herself as undressed and turned the shower on. She continued thinking about what just happened as she grabbed a fresh towel, pyjamas and face cloth. "Why were they both acting like such assholes?! Tuh, Men!" She shook her head as she closed the shower behind her and let the steam and water wash away everything that just happened. As she rinsed through her long dark hair she wondered how long it would be before Safaree came knocking at her door to apologise. Just as she was about to start lathering up with body lotion she felt a large shooting pain and she automatically doubled over to grab her stomach and let out a cry of pain, to her surprise the pain disappeared as soon as it had come. She opened her eyes slowly and started breathing normally again as she stood up straight. "Prolly just..a kick, yeah that's prolly what it was" she assured herself and continued to massage the body wash into the stretched skin across her middle. Once she was all clean and showered up she exited the bathroom with her toothbrush hangin out of her mouth as she carried her laundry to the washer, no Safaree in sight. "Good, cause I can't be dealin' with his ass right now" She whipsered to herself. She made sure all of her makeup was all removed before she finished brushing her teeth, she hated sleeping with that shit on her face. She wet into her room and closed the door and stopped when she turned to face her bed.

"Faree, what do you want?!" She had and aggressive tone to her voice.

"Look, Nic I'm sorry things got kinda outta hand earlier...I just, I care about you and I know how upset you've been because of that nig- I mean Drake.." He trailed off and looked up at her.

"Please move?!" She waited for him to get up.

"Faree?! I wanna get in to bed, how am I 'bout to do that if yo ass is sittin' in the middle of it?!" She snapped and attempted to push him out of the way which only ended with them both laughing as she bounced off of him and staggered backwards.

"I know you care! I honestly do...you have done so much for me and this baby" She said as she slid into his lap. "..and I have something to tell you!" She sang as she wiggled around on his lap with and excited grin on her face.

"Ohh yeah? And what might that be?" He lay back on the bed pulling her with him causing her start giggling.

"Yup! I found out today......" she looked down at her baby bump ".....He's a boy!" She couldn't help but smile everytime she said that and seeing Safaree make the same excited face that Drake pulled made her even happier. Her smile faded as the same shooting pain she experienced in the shower happened again.

"Ahh..sss" She hissed in pain as her hands went straight to her abdomen and her face scrunched up.

"Nic! Nicki!? What's wrong" He asked with a face full of concern. Once again the pain had come and gone quickly.

"...uh..I don't know, that's the second time it's happened now" She turned to face him, they were still laying down on the bed, her wrapped in to him.

"When did it happen last?!" He raised his voice as his panic increased. Nicki flinched at the volume of his voice.

"...in the shower, just before.." She contined rubbing her stomach until Safaree moved from underneath her and sat at her side. He slowly lifted her Pyjama top and started to rub in small circling motions. Nicki didn't stop him and relaxed as he carried on with his kind gesture.

"You think you need to go to the hospital?" He asked still massaging her bump.

"Noooo! Ion wanna get dressed! Lets just call Klara" She whined and motioned to her side table where Klara's card was sat.

"Lazy ass!!" They both giggled at his comment and as he was about to ask another question he looked down to see her sound asleep, breathing lightly. He stopped rubbing and pulled her top back down before gently laying her in her bed and tucking her in and turning her light off on his way out.

"Imma book her an appointment anyways" he mumbled to himself as he grabbed the phone, as he was about to dial he saw the message light flashing and pulled a face "Wonder who that is" he pondered as he started to play the message. What he heard made his heart jump......


*Haa cliffhanger!! Anyways, as I already said, Next post will be like waaaaay next week sometime soo, yuh! Goodbye! Sorry for any typos aaaaand sorry if this one is a little boring..I wasn't really into it, I have got so much on my mind right now...but next time I post I will be work free so hopefully I can get it back on track for y'all*

*NOTE*

Okaay, So I'm gunna post later on tonight but after that I won't be posting again until, like, the 21st or 22nd of june so y'll can just sit tight and be patient >__>
And to those of you who do read, thanks so much!! Muuah...oh and did Nicki's tweets about the McWings make anyone else mad hungry for some...or is that just me?!

Tuesday, 12 June 2012

Always There For You

***Starting where I left off last chapter***

Nicki continued to try and get away from the stranger's grasp, he wasn't hurting her but she was afraid that if she didn't try and fight him off he would end up doing something dangerous and it made her skin crawl just thinking about it. She was panicking for hers and her baby's safety. As the stranger hardened his hold on her, he turned her to face him and she relaxed in relief.

"Nicki! Calm down!! It's only me!" he soothed. She pressed her head against his chest as his arms wrapped around her, she hadn't noticed that the drunk guys had backed off and found a new source of entertainment; a group of slutty looking hoes across the street.

"Drake! Oh My god! You fuckin' asshole, you scared the shit outta me!" She said as she pulled away to look at him...she had completely forgotten his hands were still protectively holding on to her waist.

"Onika... is there...is there something you want to tell me? He said as he removed his hands slowly. Nicki's heart dropped as she stepped away from him awkwardly, to her surprise he moved closer and interwined his hand with hers.

"Tell you what, why don't we just go back to your place like we planned and talk there?" He said sweetly "It's cold, dark and I don't think you should be out here alone" He kept tight hold of her as they walked hand in hand down the sidewalk. Nicki stayed silent as she desperately tried to figure out how she was going to explain this.

"You know, I've known for a while..." he paused as he gestured towards Nicki's tummy, which was extremely evident under her tight fitting coat.

"What?!..Drake how in the hell do you know..who told you?!" She questioned hysterically.

"I do go to the same school as you y'know? You might think that those baggy clothes cover it up...but I still noticed. Not to mention remembering that night at the party..." he trailed off as they walked up the steps to Nicki's house (well, Jelani's house but y'know what I mean!). She had no idea what to say to him.

"I'm sorry..I should have told you sooner and if it makes any difference I was plannin' on tellin' you tonight...and if you wanna leave I understand, it's a lot to take in. I'm not sayin' that's what I want but I get it if you don't wanna be involved" She tried hard not to cry, she knew it wasn't good for the baby for her to be stressing and crying especially after the panic and distress she experienced just minutes ago.

"I'm glad I found out by myself...y'know, it gave me time to adjust and get used to the idea without gettin' heated and saying somethin' I didn't mean. I know it's my baby, you don't sleep around like a lot of the hoes at school and...if you let me, I wanna be there for you and our baby" He smiled that million dollar smile, it made her melt every time. Without warning she wrapped her arms around his neck as he placed his hands on the small of her back lifting her up with him. He had to bend down considering how petite she is.

"Me and our baby boy both need and want you in our lives!" Tears of joy rolled down her face. She felt like what she was saying was so mature for a 16 and 17 year old.

"It's a boy?!" He yelled in excitement.

"Nooo, IT'S not a boy, HE'S a boy!" She giggled inbetween words "I found out today!" She pulled away so she could unlock the door and let them inside.

"You went to your appointment alone?" He asked her with a voice full of concern.

"Well..yeah but only this time, Faree goes with me usually" She dropped her school bag in the small hallway as she led them towards the kitchen. Jelani's house was average sized, enough room to accomodate two people considering there were three bedrooms, one bathroom a kitchen and living area. Safaree had generously let Nicki have the bigger room with the walk-in wardrobe, he was trying to cheer her up after her rough weekend in the hospital after the placental bleed she suffered.

"...Faree, as in Safaree Samuels, the guy in my math class?" He asked trying not to seem bothered. She looked his way as she shut the refridgerator door with her butt, setting down a plate of food for them to pick at.

"Uum yeeaaah..also known as my best friend" She added with a laugh before looking at his serious face.

"Hey...what's wrong?ohh wait..you ain't jealous of him are you?" She walked over to him and got so close that her bump and her chest were pressed against him. He looked down and smiled at her dimpled grin.

"Nooo!...it's just, Ion know, I feel like he's been here for you through all the important stuff that I missed out on" He pretended to pout and look away from her.

"Aww, I'm sorry boo" She put her arms around him gently and turned their pretend stand off into a hug, a gesture that he gladly returned.

"You gon' hafta be nice to him Drake! I mean it, Faree is my rock and he has been there and done so much for me I honestly don't know what I would do without him..in fact.." She looked over at the big wall clock in the kitchen " he's gon' be home soon, you should stay and get to know him! After all he's gon' be our baby's godfather!" She looked up at him waiting for an answer.

"Sure I will, anything for you babygirl" He leant down and kissed her sweetly and as he did both he and Nicki jolted as they felt a movement between them.

"Holy shit man! Did you feel that?" Drake whispered as he looked down.

"Yeah, that was our baby" She tiptoed to reach his lips, he had to help her out a little and bend down to meet her.

Their first little family moment was interrupted by a jingling of keys followed by the stare of an angry Safaree as the two broke apart quickly.

"Someone gon' tell a coon what the fuck is goin' on here?!"

*Pheeeeew that actually took me a while, I'm sorry if it's a little boring and I know I kind of speeded the whole Nicki/Drake thing up! I was getting impatient! Well hope y'all like it! And sorry for any typos!*

Monday, 11 June 2012

*NOTE*

Ok sooo seeing as I am a blogger virgin I ONLY just figured out how to change my comment settings to 'Anyone'! I did this because I know how annoyed I used to get, before I had an account, when I couldn't leave a comment on somebody's blog. I dunno if y'all get the same way but now anybody can comment, if you are a reader of my blog ( I know people do read it cuz I can see the pageviews, ya sneaky asses) you can now comment under anonymous!! Soo pleeease comment cause I need, like, feedback and critique and..stuff! Muuah

Finding Out

Nicki left school at 2:00pm because her last lesson for the day was a free period. She had planned out in her mind what she was going to do about telling everybody about the baby. She knew Safaree was working late on Mondays, she didn't know it was because they were struggling for money though. That meant going to her appointmemt alone which is why she was nervous, she had never gone alone before because she always had Safaree with her. Thinking about it made her feel guilty for arguing with him about the smallest things and she knew she was being such a bitch to him but sometimes she just felt so trapped.

As she was leaving the school grounds she got a text from Safaree wishing her luck and to be careful on the walk there. Nicki rolled her eyes and smiled as she replied to him. She had around 30 minutes to get to her appointment which should hopefully only last about an hour and then another 40 minutes to get home, she had arranged for Drake to go around to hers while Safaree was working to make things a little less awkward. As soon as she got the confession to Drake over and done with there was only one more person to tell...her mother.

"Ms Maraj?" The nurse called out her name, in the busy waiting room. Nicki grabbed her school bag and followed the nurse into a side room where she waited for Klara.

"Okaaay, Hi Nicki!! How is everything going?" Klara asked extremely cheerfully as she walked through the door. Nicki smiled and moved over to hop on the bed.

"Hey, Everything is doing ok thanks" She replied politely as Klara began the checkup.

"Well, all of that seems great" she said as she finished up the routine tasks "now for the scan" She lifted the red hoodie that Nicki was wearing and spread the gel across her ever-growing bump.

"No Safaree with you this time?" She questioned. As she rolled the scanner around on Nicki's stomach and pushed down harder to get a clearer image.

"Nope" she said popping the P "not this time..he has to work late, he's been so good to me I don't know what I'd do without him" She said watching the screen. Klara turned slowly to look at Nicki with a huge grin on her face.

"what? What is it??" Nicki asked half-excitedly not knowing what to expect.

"Safaree's gonna be super mad he couldn't make it to this appointment!" As soon as Klara said that Nicki knew what she was talking about. The last two times Nicki had her scan the baby was in an awkward position so Klara couldn't tell them the sex of the baby.

"Ohh my God!" Nicki squealed and started to tear up, she had been waiting for this moment forever, she was desperate to stop calling her baby an 'it'.

"You ready to find out?" Klara questioned as she looked over Nicki's anxious face. Nicki nodded her head and moved her hands to hold the side of her bump.

"okaaay...looks like you're having..a....baby boy!!" Klara turned to see Nicki's face light up as she wiped the gel of her and pulled her hoodie back down.

The whole walk home Nicki couldn't stop thinking about her baby boy, she could finally stop caling him an 'it', as soon as she left the appointment she texted Safaree and told him she had news to tell him when he got home. It sounded silly but Nicki was getting excited to meet her baby in 4 months time, she had always loved kids and was really good with her little brother Caiah. She smiled as she kept her arms wrapped securely around her waist with the pleasant thoughts ruuning through her head. It was mid February and the air was still quite cold, her appointment had lasted a lot longer than she thought and it was now nearing 5:30pm. She looked up and around as she realised it was getting darker which scared her slightly because she knew she still had a good 30 minutes to walk. Soon enough loud, obnoxious laughter and arrogant cheers snapped her out of her thoughts as she got closer to a large group of guys on the same sidewalk as her, they looked drunk and all turned when they saw her coming. A couple of them started moving closer whilst the others just yelled rude sexual things at her, she tried not to show it but she was scared and she started to slow down as they got even closer to her.

"aayyyee shawty...you lookin' fine!" One of the guys said as he circled a tiny Nicki. Another one came up behind him with his hand on his crotch. She started breathing faster as panic and fear kicked in.

"You want some this baby? uuh...well come to daddy then.." He tried to lean in and grab her but she started walking backwards until she bumped into another one of them, his hands went straight to her waist as she quickly backed into him, she squirmed whilst desperately trying to get out of his grasp...

*Suuuper short and sorry for any typos*

Sunday, 10 June 2012

Facing The Music...

The weekend had been and gone and Nicki had spent staurday and sunday in the hopsital. Candi and Lauren had visited before she was discharged but had to leave when Klara came to do her rounds. Safaree had also left to move their belongings into Jelani's house. Klara wasn't supposed to see Nicki again until her next official appointment but she had arranged for a friend of hers to go and a have talk with Nicki, alone. He was a psychiatrist, Klara had explained to him Nicki's situation and informed him that the main reason for referring her to him was her worry about Nicki's age and how she was going to cope.
Nicki liked him, he seemed very cheery and made her laugh a lot but at the same time helped her to realise the severity of her situation, which understandbly led to her cryng for the best part of an hour. It was starting to sink in, she was going to be a mommy in 6 months.
3 weeks later Candi, Lauren and Safaree had organised a surprise birthday party for Nicki at Jelani's house, it was a very small gathering. Just Nicki, Safaree, Candi, Lauren, and the vaks who now knew about Nicki being pregnant. Nicki enjoyed her party because she didn't have to wear baggy boyish clothes to hide her tummy. Not to mention feeling a little bit better about being 16 and pregnant rather than 15 and pregnant!

***2 Months Later***

"Ohhhh I don't wanna go Fareeee" She dragged the last part of his name out as she folded her arms across here chest and poked her bottom lip out.

"Don't be such a brat!" He snorted as he slid her a bowl of rice bubbles across the table to her. Nicki started to laugh at his remark, but the smile faded as she felt that same feeling come over her. She ran to that bathroom and started throwing up violently, Safaree appeared behind and quickly held her hair away from her face and the toilet bowl.

"Nasty!" He said as she instantly reached for her toothbrush and toothpaste to get rid of the horrible taste.

"Fuck you!" She quipped before pushing him out of the bathroom so she could shower and get ready for school. Safaree chuckled and let her get on with her morning business.

***Lunch Time At School***

"Faree, what's the name of the school counsellor I'm s'posed to go see after lunch?" Nicki asked for the fifth time that day.

"It's Mrs Ollendar, Nicki...write it down if you have to..oh but wait" he paused "...she has course councilling to do on Mondays" Safaree stated, making Nicki look up from her lunch.

"Well then why the fuck am I goin' to see her today then?" She snapped back. Safaree looked at her weird before he continued.

"First, don't be yellin' at a nigga like that and second another teacher with a counselling background will step in for her...well that's usually the scenario" He continued to to shovel his food into his mouth as Nicki made a move and headed to the counsellor's office.

***The Counsellor's Office***

Nicki had been waiting for 10 minutes now, she was tapping ner foot impatiently.

"Shit, makin' me wait like I got all the goddam time in the world" She said to herself. The only reason she was getting restless was the amount of looks she was getting from other students passing by in the corridor. "I would stare too, seeing a girl wearin' a big ass hoodie like this" she thought as she looked down at Safaree's baggy red hoodie she was weaing, which surprisingly was covering up her 5 and a half month bump extremely well. Finally the office door opened and a younger boy walked out, signalling to Nicki that he had finished and the counsellor could now see her.

Her heart dropped as she walked in, the replacement counsellor for Mrs Ollendar looked up and smiled.

"Ahh Nicki, please take a seat" he said calmly. Nicki looked at him and then the seat he was motioning to and debated whether or not to run again. It was Mr Tomlinson.

"I didn't know you were...you know, a counsellor" Nicki said nervously as she took a seat, she hadn't seen him since he tried to talk to her after seeing that she was pregnant. He looked up from his papers on the desk and began to talk.

"Well, yes actually I was a counsellor first and then went on to get a degree in teaching Sport" He said nicely, Nicki didn't kow what to think. For the first time ever he was being...nice.

"Oh?" was all she could say back. He let out a soft chuckle.

"So what is it you are here to see me about?" He glanced up at her in between sorting the papers on his desk.

"......well, um...I, I am going to need to sort out...getting school work and..stuff sent home for the next..couple of months...." She trailed off and looked down at her lap as she finished what she was saying, she was so embarrassed "...and I was told to come see..Mrs Ollendar about it..." She quietly added.

"Ok, well it is protocol to ask, do you have a reason? He asked as he reached out to put a stack of paper into his desk drawer and looked back to her.

"...Sir..I know that you know!" She stated with attitude. He stood up from his chair and went over to sit on a chair that was directly in front of Nicki.

"When I am in this office, as a counsellor, that is what I will be. I am not always grumpy and snappy" he smiled and continued "as a counsellor I am here for students to talk to and everything will remain confidential" He tried to look Nicki in the eye but she wouldn't face him.

"..look, sir I just need to get my work for the next couple months sent home...that's all I came here for" She looked up at him as she finished what she was saying. Her voice was shaky and he could see the tears forming in her eyes.

She left the office feeling down, she had at least got her school work and everything sorted out but everything was getting on top of her. She had another appointment with Klara after school and she was feeling nervous, also her and Safaree had been arguing about when she was finally going to tell her mom she was pregnant...and whether or not to tell Drake but Nicki hadn't told Safaree that her and Drake had been secretly texting and talking to one another for about 5 weeks now. They had accidentally bumped into each other in the hallway and he kept apologising profusely about the night at the party and the way he reacted...he also told that he really liked her A LOT and he hadn't stopped thinking about her since that night. Nicki could see the sincerity in his eyes and knew she could forgive him, especially when she thought back to that tingly feeling she got when she was with him and he felt the same way. They were texting more than seeing one another in person that's why he still didn't know she was pregnant but Nicki was finally feeling comfortable enough with tell him. She was SUPER nervous and didn't know how he was going to react, she didn't wantto mess thngs up with him but she knew she was going to have to tell him sooner or later...


*wooow I actually hate this chapter! I changed it so many times and then I just got sick of it so *Lady Gaga Voice* BAM! I posted it! blah blah Typos blah sorry! ^_^ muuaah....please if anybody reads, comment! I finally figured out how to check pageviews haha and noticed people were actually viewing them....>_> but no comments :'''( Well I have to continue with this anyway to pratice for uni so...yeah!*

A Fresh Start...

Safaree awoke less than 30 minutes later, there was slight tickle irritating his cheek and he shot up out of his seat, startling Nicki in the process. He looked down to see her giggling hystercally.

"I been stroking your cheek for last 10 minutes" She spoke in between laughs.

"Ohh glad to see you think disturbin' a nigga from his sleep is funny!" He retorted with a smirk. Seeing her smile made him relax inside. Before he could tell her about the whole, moving into Jelani's house situation, a young woman came bursting through the door, there were papers flying all over and she dropped her bag on the floor spilling the contents. Safaree rushed over and helped her pick everything up.

"Oh I am so sorry, I was meant to be here at 4:00pm but there was a mad traffic jam and my daughter call-" Before she could finish Safaree cut her off.

"It is absolutely fine, don't worry about it! Not as if we can go anywhere anyway, she's in overnight" he said as he looked in Nicki's direction. She smiled tiredly at Safaree's kindness and then looked to the fumbling woman.

"Well, I am still very sorry!..ok...ok..Onika, is it?" She asked sitting herself down on a wheelie chair as Safaree went to take his seat again.

"...yes, but you can call me Nick" She replied shyly. Safaree gripped her hand to reassure her.

"Ok then Nicki it is! I am Klara Michaels and I am going to be your midwife for the duration of your pregnancy, but I am sure Dr Markus informed you about all of that" she said as Nicki and Safaree nodded their heads.

"Firstly I am going to have to ask this lovely gentleman..." She waited for him to insert his name. "Oh, Safaree" he said as he held out his hand to shake hers. "Ok well Safaree if you would please step outside while I ask Nicki to remove her clothing and put on this new gown" she said as she handed Nicki the gown and led Safaree to the door, she noticed the frightened look on Nicki's face and spoke up.

"Don't worry he can come back in once you are done!" She comforted as she and Safaree stepped outside to give her some privacy.

***Outside Nicki's Room***

"I'm not...you know, the father if that's what you're thinking.." he said as she continued scribbling on the clipboard.

"Safaree, we aren't here to judge you, or Nicki, we are just here to help" She stated as she patted his arm gently. "And I believe you, If you say you aren't the father, you aren't the father" Safaree smiled at her and then they heard a small voice on othe other side of the door.

***Back In The Room***

"Alright Nicki, lets get started" She kept talking as she got all of her tools and cleansing equipment ready, Safaree moved over to the side of Nicki's bed and watched her as she unknowingly rubbed her baby bump in a small circling motion.

"Right, I am going to start with the easy stuff, like blood pressure and everything like that, which by the way will be what we do every appointment and then we'll get you a scan sorted..but then we get to the more invasive part, which is why you had to remove your underwear. To get a better look at what's going on I'll have to use this probe" She said as she pointed to the item behind her. She noticed both Safaree and Nicki shifting in the uncomfortable situation. "If you don't feel comfortable with Safaree in the room, it is ok to say so..?" She looked at Nicki questioningly.

"No!...I mean, if he doesn't mind, I would rather he stayed with me.." She looked up at him with evident fear in her eyes.

"Hey, stop fretting kid! I'll be here, I'm not going anywhere" He soothed. Nicki instantly calmed.

After Klara had finished with the basics and explained to the teens that eveything so far was all good, she wheeled over the scanner and gave Nicki a blanket to cover female area as she had to lift her gown.

"I'll warn you before I start, the gel is very cold!" She smiled as Nicki jolted at the cold substance being spread across her stomach. Within seconds the image appeared on the screen before them, Nicki breathed in calmly as Klara pointed out the different body parts of her baby.

"So, everything looks absolutely fine! The heartbeat is good and healthy! We can't tell you the sex just yet, but we'll be able to find out in a few weeks though! ..and it looks as though your are around...12 weeks pregnang!" She said excitedly. Nicki went from looking relatively happy to quite worried, Klara knew she was worrying about the next part of the examination.

"Ok, I promise you won't feel any pain as such...just a little discomfort, ok?" She looked from Nicki to Safaree then she slowly inserted the probe as gently as she could to spare Nicki any pain. Safaree felt Nicki's hand tighten around his own and she tried to shift around on the bed as a pained expression ran across her face.
"Ok, Nicki, sweetie, try not to move around. I know it isn't nice, just bear with me ok?" Nicki nodded silently and held her eyes closed as Klara finally got the instrument where she wanted it.

Klara finished packing up her things and then looked back to the two teens. "Well, looks like we are all done here! Everything is good so far and I will pass your notes on to Dr Markus, if you have ANYTHING you need to ask please don't hesitate to call this number" She handed Nicki a card with all her contact information on it and gave her arm a reassuring rub. After Klara had left Safaree took this oppurtunity to tell Nicki about Jelani's idea, to his surprise Nicki was all for it! He thought she would have protested at the idea of leaving her mom and Caiah, but she knew full well that they would survive without her. Jelani had texted Safaree and told him that Mama Maraj knew about Nicki moving out and although she was sad she was relieved that her daughter would be away fom the destructive household.

"Soo, you gon' tell me who the nigga is?" Safaree asked out of nowhere. Nicki looked away as tears started to form in her eyes.

"...or at least tell me what happened, I mean do you even know who the father is?" He really didn't mean for it to come out like that. Nicki snapped her head back around.

"The fuck Safaree?! You mean, is it something I do regularly?! Sleeping around with random guys?!" She looked hurt and stopped trying to hold back her tears and just let them fall freely. Safaree sighed.

"You know I didn't mean it like that!" he said sternly as her slid on to the bed with her. She knew he wasn't lying, she was just stalling from telling him the truth...she was afraid of what he might do. Nobody knew who the father was, not even Candi or Lauren and keeping it locked up inside was really eating away at her. Nicki broke the silence with a tired whisper.

"Do Candi and Lauren know where I am?" She adjusted her position so that she was looking him in the eye.

"Yeah..I messaged them this morning while you were with the doctor, he said you weren't allowed visitors today, but they gon' come see you in the morning kay?" He looked back to see tears rolling down her cheeks again. He gently stroked them away and pulled her closer to him, feeling her body relax into his.

"It's Drake..." Is all Safaree heard, she had barely managed a whisper but she was so close he could make out what she had said. He felt a huge wave of anger rush over him "That nigga...better watch what's comin' his way" he thought to himself as he held Nicki close to him, with her hand laying protectively across her bump closing the gap between them.




*My eyes are bloodshot..like seriously, I been typin like a crazy bitch all day!!! Sorrrryyy for any typos, and I promise I will try and make it a little less draggy onny :/ muuaah*

Still Needing you...

Safaree and Jelani waited impatiently in the waiting area. As soon asthey had reached the hospital Nicki was rushed off for tests and an examination. Safaree sat tapping his foot and checking his watch every 2 minutes, he heard Jelani muttering to himself and he seemed to be getting riled up again. Safaree was a tall muscular guy, could easily take anyone his age or even older, but Jelani was also tall and muscular, he was very stocky as well. He had a thick neck and whenever he was angry the veins looked like they were bulging. That's what alerted Safaree to his anger. Safaree was snapped out of his thoughts by a rush of angry words being yelled at him.

"What is wrong with you nigga? No hoes interested in yo' scrawny 18 year old ass, so you gotta be chasing underaged 15 years olds?! HUH?!" He got closer and closer to Safaree as he was speaking his mind.

"You better back the FUCK up Jelani!! Nicki meant what she said! I ain't her baby daddy! Don't get me wrong, I LOVE Nicki, as a friend but I did NOT do this to her...yes, ok, she made a bad decision but don't we all at some point in our lives?" Safaree tried to reason with him, he had an explosive temper that sometimes resembled Nicki's.....and their fathers.

"Nigga..you right, I'm sorry.. I known you forever and I know you a good guy, I just...that's my baby sister in there and everything that son of a bitch be doin' to her at home... I feel so guilty for leaving there...but had I not gone...I mighta just killed the bastard!" He sighed and took a seat next to Safaree and wiped his hands down his face.

"I seen the marks and bruises on her arms, it's him doin' that to her isn't it?" Safaree asked calmly, he aready knew the answer.

"I can't even think about it, man..." he trailed off as he rested his face in his palms. Safaree started to think, Nicki can not be staying in a home where she is abused, especially not now that she was pregnant.

"....This may seem bold, and I won't blame you if you say no and start cussing me out again, but what if Nic was to come live with me...she could have my sister's old room?" Safaree waited patiently for an answer, expecting Jelani to explode again.

".....Or...since I'm moving to Florida, only temporarily though, I was visiting Nic to ask if she would house sit for me, that way she would be away from him and my house would be looked after but now that you mention it I would prefer for her not to be alone...would you stop with her, in my house?" He seemed hesitant but Safaree could see he meat every word.

"Dude, you sure??" Was all Safaree could say, he was slightly taken aback that Jelani, the overprotective brother was asking him to stay an look after Nic.

"I trust you. I saw the way you were with her today and you obviously care a lot about her, and you calmed her down like ain't ever seen anyone comfort her...not even Mom!" Jelani replied with a slight half-smile. Safaree decided it was time he stepped up to this responsibility. Her baby daddy, whoever he was, obviously didn't care or didn't know, and there was no way in hell he was going to let her stay in the same house as that monster.

"I'll do anything for her" As soon as he uttered those words Jelani embraced him in a masculine hug full of gratitude and handed him the keys to his place.

"Mind you nigga, I hear anythin' funny 'bout you Imma whoop yo' ass!" They both let out a light laugh before noticing the approaching nurse.

"Are you here with a Ms...Onika Maraj" She asked as she scanned over a clipboard in her hands.

"Uhh Yeah, I'm Jelani Maraj, I'm her brother..and this here is her friend Safaree" Jelani stood quickly to answer her.

"Is she ok, when can we see her?" Safaree urgently added.

"Sure, she is still waiting to have her examination done but she has had the tests done and they have been sent off. Right now she is with her doctor and he'll get you up to speed on everything that is going..but to answer your question, yes she is perfectly fine" She smiled and led them to Nicki's room. Bothe men entered quietly as they saw her sleeping, there was wires and machines around her which made them both feel a little uneasy.

"Ah! You must be..the brother" The doctor said as he pointed to Jelani "...and the best friend?" he asked as he motioned towards Safaree "She was telling me all about her favourite boys" he said with a smile on his face. The two guys felt a bit more relaxed seeing him, they got the impression that there was no bad news.

"So...do you know what happened, I mean there's nothing wrong with her...or the baby..right?" Safaree asked as Jelani held eye contact with the doctor.

"Onika, suffered a partial bleed to the placenta, it can be serious but luckily for her and the baby's sake it was caught in time. We are going to keep her here over night and monitor her and wait for the remaining test results to come back. I'm all done here but by all means hang around, she is resting now but the midwife will be around soon to attend to her. I will be the one to deliver the baby but Klara Michaels will be Onika's midwife and be with her for all of her appointments and scans. There has been the worry about her age, she is only 15 years old, as a doctor I am NOT here to judge Onika but I am concerned about that particular aspect...ohh Sorry gentlemen I really can't stay any longer, I trust I will be seeing you around, take care" and with that the doctor left the room.

Safaree and Jelani stood there shell shocked, they were so thrilled and relieved that Nicki was ok but it really only just started to dawn on them, Nicki was going to have a baby.

After around two or three hours Nicki was still sleeping, Jelani looked at his watch which read 6:00pm. "Look man, now that I know she's ok I really hafta go..my plane leaves in a couple hours" he said as he walked over to Nicki, he kissed her gently on her forehead and stroked her cheek, she didn't even stir. "I spoke to mom earlier, I told her that Nicki had food poisoning and that she was stopping at your place tonight" Safaree nodded in understanding, he knew there was no way Nicki wanted her parents knowing about this just yet. The guys said their goodbyes and then it was just Safaree and Nicki in the room. He pulled a chair up next to her bed and held her small hand in his until sleep took over.



* Ok so this drags on a LOT but it was kind of importantish...I think so, yuuh!*